Random ramblings

It is 12:31 AM on the clock and my head feels like a fuzzy soap bubble – you touch it, you lose it...poof!

There are exactly 7 work assignments to attend to. One kitchen to be cleared. Few interior design references to collect. A text to be dropped to check on a cousin and one child to be nursed to sleep again, as and when he wakes up.

I can see my colored hair from the corner of my eyes while typing this. They look dry, lifeless, and rope-like. The insides of my tummy are feeling funny - I had my lunch/dinner at 5:30 PM today. I think my body is indicating me to eat something. I don’t feel hungry though. I know how hunger pangs feel. 

While I type this, my brain is also bringing up an image I saw while video-calling my mom-in-law today – My bloated, double-chinned face. I had not liked the image and had promptly reverted the camera to show her the rain-washed greens around. I have gained weight and I don’t feel good about it.

My husband is sitting at an arm’s distance from me right now. He is attending his office work too. It has been more than an hour since I put our son to sleep and joined him in this room to finish my pending work. We haven’t exchanged a word yet. The occasional sounds of his chair moving, his metal rakhi hitting the study and my keyboard’s clickety-click are louder than pleased.

The kind of peace we have in this room right now is exactly what I crave throughout the day to concentrate on work, but now that I have it, my mind is again wandering to find some peace from this peace. This is funny. My head is not processing the expected outputs.

Wait. Another image is popping in my head - A switch on my back. If I turn it off, I can save some power. This is good. How do I reach for the switch though? 
My arm doesn’t reach my back.

Adios, Bangalore!

My Darling Bangalore,
I’d never thought I’ll be bidding you adieu so soon, but while I was busy falling in love with you, planning a future together, destiny happened. And as fate has it for us, we gotta part our ways...

Today, in these final moments with you, I want you to know that I am deeply indebted, will always be, for all that you’ve bestowed me with in the past two years, that is, unbridled moments of love, laughter, joy, bonhomie and of course, marital bliss! It’s not possible for me to express my gratitude for every bit of the zillion lovely things that you’ve given me but, I do want to mention a couple of those in all earnestness.

Starting from the top - thank you for introducing me to the person my husband is and making him my pride, my joy, my world, the nucleus of my existence. I wouldn’t have known him any better, had it not been you.

Thank you for the roof at house no. 7, Doddenakundi Extn. and the spiral of happy, loving memories within its four walls that I called ‘my’ home, only until yesterday...

Thank you for a doting family away from family in Urmil nani, Geeta di, Meenu di, Ashutosh mausa ji and Shail mausa ji.

Thank you for fostering friendships that’ll be cherished forever with Shikha, Ravi, Simmi, Ankush, Gaurav, Deepika, Garima & Varun. Not to forget, a sincere thanks for my dearest Amrita and her family, and their ardent services.

Also, I can’t thank you enough for the addictive filter coffee in steel glasses, fragrant Kesari Bhaat, crispy Murukkus, flavourful Andhra meals, melt-in-mouth Mysore Pak and the breakfast rescuer dosa batter. Thank you for the zesty breweries and charming rooftop restaurants. Thank you for the bright and beautiful weekend vacays. Thank you for the cozy rainy mornings and pleasant, sublime evenings. Thank you for letting this winter born revel in summery dresses for her birthdays.

While our whirlwind romance comes to an abrupt end here, please be assured that my love for you is everlasting.

In the priceless trove of memories that I am taking away with me, I am taking away a part of you as well. And in the joyous moments that I’ve lived here with you, I am leaving a part of me in you too, for, that’s the only way for me and you to remember that once we lived a love story together!

Wishing you more beauty, more vigour and more power to pen endless chapters of love, fun and fortune for every individual who comes your way.

I, for one, shall miss you terribly!

Love you till the sun burns out
Goodbye, Bangalore!


Affectionately yours,
~ Sanchi

Illusions

a trail of thoughts, a stream of whims
a flash of fire, a blow of wind
a pool of vices, a bunch of sins
I am everything that you don't see.

a touch of warmth, a source of faith
a pint of strength, a streak of chaste
a bout of care, a trace of grace
No, I am nothing what you see.

#Mother

The baby eyes sparkled at the sight of her glittering golden tassel.
Placing it in those chubby little hands, the blushing bride beamed with pride.

A virgin mother was all set to become a wedded wife.

#Airport

Two cities. Two souls. One future.

In between arrival and departure,

sweet nothings penned their airport diaries.

Keep Walking

Keep walking, keep doing your share of good along the way
Love everything that strikes a chord, love it like it's your last chance

Find peace in what fills the soul, find it more

Feel it if it feels; do not be ashamed
Lend voice to what the heart says, lend sincerity to that voice

Be humbled for unconditional love, be respectful to the one who loves

Keep walking to love, to find, to feel, to lend, to be

Keep walking, for life is too short to halt and wait for others to catch up.

#Silence

They awed her beauty, charmed her by raining praises and poems,
Poor souls...if only they knew that the only thing that worked on her was --

The glide of his gaze and that smitten half smile in silence.